Kindness and Disbelief

For the record, I’m an atheist. Not an on-the-fence atheist or an agnostic, but a solid, definite atheist. On some level, this blog is bound to be about how an atheist processes this whole brain tumor thing.

So, let’s get the obvious stuff out of the way:

When someone says “I will pray for you”, what I hear is best wishes from a very kind-hearted person who cares about my well being and wishes to do something for me that they feel will help. I don’t believe it will impact my outcomes because I don’t believe there is a consciousness out there to receive the message, but I understand where the inclination to pray for people who are going through hardship originates and will certainly take it in the generous spirit in which it is intended. Many years ago, when I was a theist, praying for people who were in trouble made me feel like I was taking some action on their behalf. I can respect peoples’ desire to participate in a positive way.

Anyone tempted to veer into “no atheists in foxholes” territory, though, by assuming this situation will compel me to revoke my atheism now that my life is at risk should reconsider that line of reasoning – it really isn’t very nice. People who believe it have veered from a kind impulse to into a self-righteous one. Also, they clearly don’t know me very well.

Philosophically, I would have no human being bend her or his knee in supplication before a god, king, or master of any kind (real or otherwise) – especially not on my behalf.

Instead, for friends inclined to help, I’d like to suggest standing up in honor of humanity’s ongoing search for knowledge and making a donation to the University of Washington Brain Tumor Research Fund, or sending a note to Abe to let him know how great he is. After all, the real heroes in this world are the researchers, physicians, and educators who work tirelessly every day to find cures for this stuff; and the families and friends who do the tough work of caring for their loved ones when they have lemons in their brains.




4 thoughts on “Kindness and Disbelief”

  1. Gonzo The Great


    Not as satisfying as the feel one has done SOMETHING to try to positively impact your situation. That at least feels like a direct confrontation between the requester and a deity who may, or may not, take a hand in this. On your side.

    After all, look at i, the generic “ME” human being calling a GOD to account! To a believer that is serious stuff. Where as a donation, that is some impersonal thing one tosses at strangers.

    It is a way for those who are not so select as to have a major malfunction to deal with that malfunction that is not ours.

    Selfish? Yes.

    1. With regards to research donations – chondrosarcoma is extremely rare, so unfortunately, there is very little research about it. Every bit of the little research that exists is providing me with the information I need to make decisions about my treatment. Assuming this goes well, those who paid for that research will have made a definite contribution – the knowledge they paid to acquire will have saved my life and will save the lives of others who suffer from the same cancer.

      As far as more personal positive impacts are concerned, Abe and I have deeply appreciated the kind wishes and gifts from friends and family who have written, posted online, and sent things our way.

  2. Pauline Gayle

    Maria I will continue to do everything I can to see you through these trying times and that includes praying that you will get through the fire without the smell of smoke. Abe my friend, I will do all I possibly can to let you know how precious you are to Maria and to us for taking such good care of Maria.

    Loving you with all my heart.

    1. Thanks, Pauline. That’s very kind. I hope you are doing well, and look forward to seeing you in a few months!

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